Sunday, February 28, 2010

A Beautiful Sunday Morning

Alhamdulillahil ladzi ahyaana ba'dama amaatana wa ilaihinn nushuur

Good morning to everyone =)

This morning was so beautiful.

The morning in Kampung Bantal, Ulu Tembeling when we were posted there last year. It was beautiful. Everybody went out to seek for rezeki for the day. But, they were not rushing as in the town. No traffic jam along the river =p (Me : with the blue shirt and red cap)

I felt very happy for it (despite abundant of notes to to be reviewed).

I seldom had chance to really appreciate the morning and the scenery as the morning was usually the busiest time; planning and preparing everything - mental, physical and emotional for the day.

Thanks Allah for giving me chance to continue living and find ways to seek for Your Love and Mercy.

I pray for my family members and friends for their health and happiness in life in whatever condition they are facing right now.

Allah is certainly giving us the challenge for us to face it and He will then elevate our level of faith if we go through it with patience and redha.

That is how He shows His Love to us.

"For those who fear standing before their Rabb, there will be two gardens.

Then, which of Your Rabb's favors will both of you deny?

Having shady trees with lush of green branches.

Then, which of Your Rabb's favors will both of you deny?

In both of them, there will be two flowing springs.

Then, which of Your Rabb's favors will both of you deny?

In both of them, there will be two pairs of every fruits.

Then, which of Your Rabb's favors will both of you deny?" *

Surah Ar-Rahman (55) : 47-53

* And the verses continue illustrating the beauty in the Heaven; the place for those who believed in Him.

This is the real beautiful place.

Insya Allah, we have to strive our best in this world to make us eligible to enter the Jannah .

After all, it is only with the Mercy of Allah that allows us to step in it.

Then, which of Your Rabb's favors will both of you deny?

Note: To all my batch-mates : good luck for the examination tomorrow.

25200 Kuantan

Friday, February 26, 2010

Please Pray for Me

"Please pray for me."

There was nothing else I repeatedly said to my family when we talked through phone.

My mother : Yes, I always pray for all my children everyday in every prayer.

My father : Yes, insya Allah. You just have to study well.

Nabilah : Hmm...

Hanisah : Insya Allah. Good Luck. (via Facebook chatting)

Kamil : Ye...

Syukri : Ye lah...

Madihah : Ye la, ye la

Muhsin : ...

They are the sources of my inspiration.

And right now, I just cannot wait to finish the examination and go back home.

Thank you Allah for giving me this family.

Thank you Allah for giving us extra one day (today is a holiday for Maulidur Rasul) for our revision before the examination.

Thank you Allah for everything.

Indeed, I am only a servant who rely everything on Your Mercy.

25200 Kuantan

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Contraception and Family Planning

My mother and I used to have arguments regarding contraception and family planning.

In my mother's opinion, contraception and family planning are only eligible for those who has medical illnesses that can endanger their life if they get pregnant.

According to her, financial or economics problem should never be an excuse for people for not having children.

She said that children are gifts from Allah and there are 'rezeki' accompanied with the delivery of the children as Allah had mentioned in the Quran.

She said that there are many of her friends who planned for not getting child in the first few years of marriage end up with having no children at all.

I partly agreed with her. But, after observing the scenario in the society especially in Kuantan, I felt like those in low socio economics status should be counseled properly on contraception and family planning.

They are the ones who are living in a house without any room; thus every business is carried in that limited space. So, there is no wonder why they keep producing one child in each year!

These unfortunate children would be left improperly supervised as their parents are struggling to get income everyday so that they can have meal for that day! (I used to think that 'kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang' is only well-illustrated in the story books and television before I met personally with them in Kuantan!)

The children are not going to school because of financial problem. I've met quite a number of them! It is very pity for the children.

Somehow, I accept their decision to stop schooling and help the parents. One can succeed in life in many ways even if they do not have a formal education or not having good academic performance.

But, what worries me most is in term of the religious knowledge.

For the children or teenagers whose the parents are not really emphasizing in religious knowledge, the school is the place for them to at least be exposed to the Islamic teaching.

What will happen if they are not going to school?

That is why our society is really problematic nowadays.

The children will get involve in immoral activities and thus increasing the rate of juvenile cases and other social problems among the teenagers.

I do not know on where to point the fingers.

The parents are struggling fighting for a better life for the children.

The children on the other hand are innocent as they do not get full attention.

The society is also too sick to provide a good atmosphere for the development of a child.

In the end, the finger will be pointed to myself as an educated Muslim who perform my solat everyday, read the Quran and know on the right and wrong deed. What have I done for the future of the next Muslim generation?

Let's think on what have we done to save the faith of our future great-grandchildren.

"You are the best nation which has ever been raised for the guidance of mankind. You enjoin the good, forbid the evil and believe in Allah. Surah Al Imran (3) : 110

25200 Kuantan

Fulfilling the student's duty

I had a long day in operation theater yesterday. I planned to present some cases there but the surgeons were so busy. So, we just observed the operations.

I hate being in OT since my third year.

Thus, a big NO to the surgical-based discipline.

But, who knows on what will happen in the future =)

Have We not caused thy bosom to dilate. And eased thee of the burden . Which weighed down thy back; and exalted thy fame? But lo! with hardship goeth ease, Lo! with hardship goeth ease; So when thou art relieved, still toil and strive to please thy Lord. Surah Al-Insyirah (94) : 1-8

Note : Credit to Nor Saidah for the photos

25200 Kuantan

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Her voice

In Wednesday evening, my tiring day was brightened when Wahid picked up my phone call. After nearly 2 weeks of not having her around us, it was such a big relief.

We talked about so many things. Everything came into the conversation.

Most importantly, I admired on how tough she was when she told me about her condition and procedures performed on her.

She told me on how painful was the bone marrow aspiration.

She also told me on how grateful she felt as there were other patients with the same illness in the ward having a more severe symptoms than her.

She also told me on the difficulty in moving around since the laparotomy incision site was not healed well and she had to do the dressing by herself.

Luckily, she has a strong mom to be always beside and support her. A mom is always like that. A very strong person that will never let the children turning down along the way.

Yesterday, I got this message from Safwan's and Ili's status in Facebook:

Update on Nurwahida: She was admitted for non neutropenic sepsis noted upon her chemo session. Her Hb was 6.3 and was tranfused with 2 pack cell,started on antibiotic. She's feeling much better and her fever has settled. She is diagnosed with HL stage IV as per liver involvement. Her team is arranging for more test to... ensure it's not NHL d/t her disease presentation. She was discharged yesterday.

I never knew and never bother to know the stage of her illness. It was stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma!

The best thing that I can do for her is to pray for her physical, mental, emotional and most importantly spiritual strength to fight with the illness. I pray to Allah to give way to the cure of the illness.

After all, this life is a journey to meet Allah. We never know on what would happen to us in the next second. May our faith be stronger with all the challenges in life.

Never give up our hope to Allah as He is the Best Planner.

"Do the people think that they will be left alone on saying "We believe," and they will not be tested? We did test those who gone before them. Allah has to see who are the truthful and who are the liars." Surah Al-Ankabut (29): 2-3

25200 Kuantan

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Connecting with People

Today, I relearned about brotherhood.

To give way to our friend first before our own-self.

It reminded me on the story of a companion during a war when he was exhausted and thirsty. He was then given drink by a person, however he refused to receive it.

He asked the person to give the drink to others as he thought they were people who were more in need than him.

The person then went to give the drink to other companion and the same thing happened when the companion asked him to give to other in need person.

This happened for several times until the drink reached the first companion.

(This story is apart from an authentic hadith but unfortunately, I do not remember the whole hadith)

We need to be good to other people so that people will be good to us.

In a charity visit in Rumah Ehsan, Dungun

We need to care about others so that people will care about us.

We need to have the sense of empathy to other people.

For everything that we give, we will always get it back. That is the formula in life. If we don't get it in this world, insya Allah there will be something for us in the hereafter.

So friend, let us treat people in the way we want others to treat us. Do it sincerely because of Allah. Insya Allah, there will be no hurt feeling in our daily relationship with people.

It seems easy, but it is definitely not as we deal with human. May Allah show us the way.

Together with posting mates during 4th year - at Jerantut Dental Clinic

"The believers are brothers to one another, therefore, make reconciliation between your brothers and fear Allah, so that you may be shown mercy." Surah Al-Hujurat (49) : 10

25200 Kuantan

Sunday, February 14, 2010

To my dear friend

I just could not believe in it initially but I know that Allah's plan is the best plan after all. My friend was finally diagnosed with Hodgkin lymphoma (malignant proliferation of lymphatic tissues) in the end of January after so many investigations were carried out including a diagnostic laparotomy (a surgical operation to open the abdominal wall).

I could count myself on how many times I've visited when she was admitted to the ward. Yes, I think it was only less ten visits despite the fact that she was admitted to HTAA. I am not that strong to visit her and to see her ill-looking face. Luckily, there were many of our classmates went to visit her everyday.

There were so many stories that we share together. We've made a very good team - me, Wahid, Ili and Safwan; mixture of laugh, sadness, stressful and even 'fights'. We share the same vision in volunteerism though sometimes there were clashes of ideas along the way. But that thing strengthen our bonding.

Wahid is sitting beside me at the left side

I am hoping she will try hard to cope well with the condition and possess a full motivation to proceed with the chemotherapy for the next 6 months. It will be a great challenge for her as it is difficult to get intravenous line to be set up at the peripheral. Maybe a chemo pot insertion is the best option.

I pray for your strength and patient, Wahid. Insya Allah everything will be fine. It is the way for Allah to elevate the level of faith inside you.

25200 Kuantan

Saturday, February 6, 2010

And I continue moving..

It has been nearly 1 month after the last time I updated this blog. There are so many things that I intend to share so that we can learn something from the experience in this very short life. But, I just need a few more momentum to start with it. After all, I thank Allah for this life.

"Did he not find you lost and gave you guidance? Did He not find you poor and made you self sufficient? Therefore, do not treat the orphan with harshness, and do not chide away the beggar, and rehearse the bounty of your Rabb" Surah Ad-Dhuha (93) : 7-11

Note : Currently, I am approaching the last 2 weeks of Obstetric and Gynaecology posting before the end-block examination. I just want to finish this posting 'safely', InsyaAllah.